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I’m torn, because all of my life people have told me that home is where the heart is

But for the first time in my life, coming home from college to visit the family seemed more like a job than a actual vacation. I realized that "home" was not "home" at all with out the people who made it what it was while you lived here. When I say people I am talking about my 12-20 closet friends from high school who have moved on or moved out of our circle here in NM. They too are like a family. It shocks me to know many of my colleagues who do NOT keep in touch with many peers from high school, when most of my posse is from there. Don't get me wrong I love my family and it was wonderful to see them, but after 48 hours of re-uniting (oh it felt so good) I was felt my time here had reached its end. It's a bittersweet feeling to me to think that I have finally out grown the town where I spent all of my childhood years. But I suppose that's life. We move on, we grow, we learn. This chapter is complete.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

Do you ever just want to run outside and scream! Sometimes I just do not get it. Please someone correct me if I am wrong, but isn't summer during your college years supposed to be full of F.U.N. (fuckin' uncontrollable nonsense) maybe its just me... But why must some people feel we HAVE TO grow up so quickly. This is the time to take to be RIDICULOUS and SILLY. Make crazy memories and only have minor consequences. Having the 9-5 job is such a bitch and we have plenty of time for that. I know and understand that WE (in the now) need to learn responsibility but aren't we allowed a little room for error? Life is not meant to be taking so SERIOUSLY. This seems to be the ongoing theme of my blog.. Life and how to live it. SO sometimes life sucks... but as my boyfriend always puts it... "deal with it." Shit happens, but the show must go on. And on it will. Leave your audience wanting more... a freakin' ENCORE! You don't want them to walk out at intermission because of boredom. Live for crying out loud! Get liberated! Love---laugh---learn--- LIVE!!